I have also been learning; that is, trying to learn that who I believe Jesus to be, is foundational to my ability to love. I assert, along with most orthodox Christians, that the primary characteristic of God lies in the fact that all things come from Him, and are completely in His jurisdiction and control.
For by Him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.
~Colossians 1: 16, 17
But sometimes there is a gulf between what professing believers say, and what their lives reveal about what they really believe.
"You practice what you believe, the rest is all religious talk"
I have hit my head against this wall...more than once.
In the writing of words, I uncover my own meaning and unveil God. It is where His Word meets me as I listen for His voice, trying to keep the truth foremost in my mind. It is my worship, and ultimately He is my audience of One.
But when all is said and done, though I say I love God, believe in Him and trust Him implicitly, I still live my life looking to others to supply what only He can give to me.
Love, and acts done in God's pure love, can only take place if relationships are free from expectations. And there are no expectations, if I believe God is truly the source of EVERYTHING. The moment we look to put someone, or something as our source of happiness, or comfort, we put it in the place of God.
God is not little. In fact, everything that is going on right now is in fact perfect, and is going according to God's plan EXACTLY. Everything is in His perfect timing. God's not in a hurry like we are. The people and situations which occur in our life - those good and those difficult - are there according to God's perfect plan for us. His plan of sanctification...which is for us to become like He is.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.
~Romans 8:28,29
God gives great freedom when we realize that people and situations offer opportunity for God to demonstrate the reality of our relationship to Him. He gives them for the purpose of testing and revealing who his children are. As he loves through us, we realize we are loved by God. people and situations are God-given for the purpose of testing and revealing the children of God, the objects of God's love...if we only have the world's kind of love (which centers on using and getting) in us, sin's powerful, selfish grip on our hearts will be evident in our inability to love.
~Norm Wakefield
Here is the reality of what life is like when God is little, and I have become "bigger than God" in my own heart and life.
-worries.
-fears.
-fears what others think.
-offended.
-easily believes lies and becomes blinded to the truth.
-is bitter and questioning of God's love.
-is certain they are right. Pride. Spiritual pride.
-develops a "gospel" centered around works and performance in hopes of eliminating pain and suffering, though this may be done without even realizing it.
-works based relationship with God because though they may say, they do not live as if God is sovereign and reigning over everything.
-manipulative
-controlling.
-sleepless.
-judging of others because they do not truly believe that God is judge and must control others standards/ and or lifestyles.
-life is clouded with deception.
-gives a perception of themselves to others that is not real.
-angry. Stressed out.
This list is endless...and many times much on this list is me. But even when I make God small, in reality, He is still Big, and EVERYTHING is going exactly according to God's plan. Nothing thwarts His plan...especially not me.
Even when I blow it...at work, with my kids, my husband...He still has it all planned, from before the foundation of the world. There is meaning to suffering, even the suffering that I bring on myself.
According as He hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love..
~Ephesians 1:4
The Truth is....He Reigns.
He reigns over the future.
He reigns over the past.
He is reigning now.
He will reign for all eternity.
There is nothing He doesn't reign over.
...A person’s life is like grass. Like a flower in the field it flourishes, but when the hot wind blows by, it disappears, and one can no longer even spot the place where it once grew. But the Lord continually shows loyal love to his faithful followers, and is faithful to their descendants, to those who keep his covenant, who are careful to obey his commands. The Lord has established His throne in heaven; His kingdom extends over everything.
~Psalm 103:15-19
Until there is a revelation of God's "bigness", we as humans live as though He is little, or maybe not even God at all.
If I am truly His child then I will live, and keep coming back to, the freeing and liberating truth that God is working through and planning everything that comes our way. It is for our good, and it is out of His great love for us.
With this as our foundation in which we view all things in life, we have not only hope, but peace... and fear and worry are not our constant companions.
I have been learning, and am relieved to learn, that it is not my responsibility to change my heart or the hearts of others. What a great burden that would be to carry. This gives me peace especially in regards to my own children and their hearts. I am not to discipline my children in order to change them, or to break their stubborn wills, but because God tells me to discipline my children. I must trust God to change their hearts.
And He will turn the hearts of fathers to their children and the hearts of children to their fathers, lest I come and strike the land with a decree of utter destruction.
~Malachi 4:6
This is what it means to...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding...
~Proverbs 3:5
This is what it means to be free.
Free to love God, free to love others.
Always Seeking Higher Ground,
Nora






















